Its August 2005. I told myself that I must live a better life this month. One that is more happy and fulfiling.
Nonetheless.... this month is a hell month for me.

Received news that my office is shifting real soon. Moving to Teo Hong Rd, near Outram MRT.
I really dread the idea of shifting. Went to see the place last Saturday. Don't like it much.
I don't want to get involved in the shifting. Argh!! You guys going to say its all my fault right? For not looking for a new job.
Let's not go to that point yet.

My working hours has changed to. Mon to Fri (9.00am to 6.30pm) and alternate Saturdays, (9.00am to 3.00pm).
Ok, alternate Saturdays seem much better than now, but having to work from 9 to 3 alone is not nice at all.
Been hearing many unpleasant things in the office... I missed those happy times.. when I just started working here.
Everyone is being nice to everyone. Or isit REAL??? Or isit just devils in disguise?
And now that we are shifting, many members are definitely going to call up and enquire. Haiz..

People come and go. I did not regret coming to this place to work. I did learnt some things and met diffierent kinds of people. Weirdos included. But lately the tension is increasing everyday. Been hearing things that I don't want to hear.

Its a suffocating feeling.

Another big problem which never leaves me is regarding my bro.
Those close to me should know what happened. Im really very sad and worried. He is no longer the responsible and caring bro that I had. All the household chores.. are once again on my shoulders. I HATE Sundays!!!

I sincerely pray that he will wake up soon. Or do I need to give him a tight slap? I just hope that my bro will do something about his life. I would rather he be happy and let all bad things befall on me ba.... Everyone is worried about him yet he remains slient. Maybe something is troubling him... but we will never know unless he reveals it all.

I really tried to be happy. I did not plan to be so depressed always.
I got no mood to do anything.
Maybe the only way is to be ruthless. Be heartless. Ignore my bro totally and believes that I only live with my dad.


Can I do that? Is it me?